I cannot believe the clumsiness and the procrastination I have been doing. I am going frugal and dropping most of my things, digital and physical. I believe these things are holding me back from turning pro. I get overburdened sometimes and feel trapped and cannot move forward. I get so discouraged in doing anything, that I cannot even log my weight and instead sit and binge-watch nonsense to just keep my mind occupied that I do not have to think of life. I believe I feel this way due to the things I am holding on to in my life.